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Summary: AU in which Yunho is a priest and Jaejoong is his secret lover. Sappy, sappy, sappy. What's worse? I got the inspiration for this fic while watching the episode of Golden Girls where Dorothy is interested in a Catholic priest. ... Don't judge me!
Warning: Topic has the potential to be a bit blasphemous, I'll admit, but there's nothing too bad. Lots of mention of religion and God, though. If you don't like that in your fanfic, I understand.
Disclaimer: Jaejoong and Yunho belong to each other. All other rights belong to S.M. Entertainment, Avex, C-JeS and Time Warner Entertainment.
“Do you think we’re a sin?” Jaejoong asked, lacing his fingers with Yunho’s.
The other man stiffened as they sat in the pew, but didn’t let go of the warm hand. “No,” he whispered.
Jaejoong smiled happily and turned to look at his lover’s profile: kind dark eyes, short cropped hair and warm olive skin that glowed from the light of the nave’s candles. His contentment died at the sight of the white collar peeking out from the opening of his black jacket.
“You should,” he murmured dejectedly. “That’s what they taught you to believe. What you teach others. What makes us different?”
“I don’t preach hate,” Yunho insisted. “I don’t think we’re a sin because I don’t believe love is a sin. Nothing about you could be considered a sin.”
“Love may not be a sin, but sex certainly is. It would be even if I was a woman.”
Yunho didn’t answer. Instead, he closed his eyes and lowered his head. Jaejoong could see his lips moving in silent prayer. He pressed closer to the other man, taking in his scent of burnt candle wax and incense.
“I can destroy your life, Yunho-yah. If anyone in the diocese—fuck, if anyone in the parish found out, you’d be excommunicated. They’d shun you and cast you to hell.”
“I don’t it like when you curse,” Yunho said calmly, keeping his head down.
“And I don’t like it when you pretend to be something you’re not.”
“I’m a man of God, a man of faith.”
“You’re a man who sleeps with another man. According to your faith, that makes you an abomination.”
Yunho snapped his head up sharply. “Don’t speak like that,” he whispered harshly. “I know the Word. I’ve studied it, I’ve interpreted it and I’ve taught it. What I feel for you is not an abomination and I won’t let anyone make me think it is.”
Jaejoong beamed. He leaned forward and placed a chaste kiss to the holy man’s lips. “Leave this place,” he begged softly. “I don’t want to hide anymore. We can be free from the bishop and everyone else’s disapproval. We’ll be happy.”
Yunho squeezed Jaejoong's hand tightly and shook his head. “I made vows, Jaejoongie. Vows with the Church that I take just as seriously as the promises I’ve made to you. I can’t break them.”
“So I have to love you in secret forever?” Jaejoong asked, voice breaking.
“You’re asking me to choose between you and God, Jaejoong-ah. I can’t do that. I’m giving you as much of myself as I can. Please accept that.”
Jaejoong’s eyes stung and he turned away from Yunho’s beseeching gaze. He looked up at the church’s alter. Silken tapestries lay on the marble table, and behind it, a large stained glass window depicted the Resurrection. All of the people in the glass wore golden halos and bowed reverently to the heavenly being above them.
Jaejoong was going to lose Yunho. He knew it in his heart and his chest ached dully with the pain of the realization. He was no saint nor was he remotely angelic. Yunho was a man a the cloth, a man with priorities much grander than lusting after some piece of trash from his flock. All Jaejoong was doing was leading him to damnation.
“Jaejoong-ah,” Yunho said softly, wrapping an arm around the other man. “I can’t leave the Church but I can’t leave you, either.”
“God will hate you because of me,” Jaejoong sniffed.
“God doesn’t hate those who love, Jaejoongie. Can I tell you a secret?”
The older man rubbed his hands across his damp eyes. “What?”
“You’re the reason my faith is so strong, Jaejoong-ah. People always told me that God is love and I believe that now more than ever. You make me happy, you remind me of all the good in this world, and loving you has been the most wondrous, miraculous thing to ever happen in my life.”
“Will you still think that when Satan’s sweeping you over hell’s burning coals?” Jaejoong asked piteously.
“That won’t happen,” Yunho promised warmly. “But I’ll love you as long as you let me, on Earth and in Heaven.”
Jaejoong smiled weakly and clasped the silver cross that hang from Yunho’s neck. “If I make it into Heaven,” he pouted.
“You’re a good man, Jaejoong. Don’t worry. I know a great deal about the man in charge, and trust me when I say He loves you, too.”
A/N: I've been writing again. Another chapter for my multi-part Psych fic and another YunJae fic that's no way near as happy as this one. It's taken me a while to get my writing mojo back. I felt so guilty about not finishing the Christmas series (I'm so sorry about that but I'd rather post nothing than post quickly written stuff that I think is crap), that it was hard to face my own journal.
Summary: AU in which Yunho is a priest and Jaejoong is his secret lover. Sappy, sappy, sappy. What's worse? I got the inspiration for this fic while watching the episode of Golden Girls where Dorothy is interested in a Catholic priest. ... Don't judge me!
Warning: Topic has the potential to be a bit blasphemous, I'll admit, but there's nothing too bad. Lots of mention of religion and God, though. If you don't like that in your fanfic, I understand.
Disclaimer: Jaejoong and Yunho belong to each other. All other rights belong to S.M. Entertainment, Avex, C-JeS and Time Warner Entertainment.
“Do you think we’re a sin?” Jaejoong asked, lacing his fingers with Yunho’s.
The other man stiffened as they sat in the pew, but didn’t let go of the warm hand. “No,” he whispered.
Jaejoong smiled happily and turned to look at his lover’s profile: kind dark eyes, short cropped hair and warm olive skin that glowed from the light of the nave’s candles. His contentment died at the sight of the white collar peeking out from the opening of his black jacket.
“You should,” he murmured dejectedly. “That’s what they taught you to believe. What you teach others. What makes us different?”
“I don’t preach hate,” Yunho insisted. “I don’t think we’re a sin because I don’t believe love is a sin. Nothing about you could be considered a sin.”
“Love may not be a sin, but sex certainly is. It would be even if I was a woman.”
Yunho didn’t answer. Instead, he closed his eyes and lowered his head. Jaejoong could see his lips moving in silent prayer. He pressed closer to the other man, taking in his scent of burnt candle wax and incense.
“I can destroy your life, Yunho-yah. If anyone in the diocese—fuck, if anyone in the parish found out, you’d be excommunicated. They’d shun you and cast you to hell.”
“I don’t it like when you curse,” Yunho said calmly, keeping his head down.
“And I don’t like it when you pretend to be something you’re not.”
“I’m a man of God, a man of faith.”
“You’re a man who sleeps with another man. According to your faith, that makes you an abomination.”
Yunho snapped his head up sharply. “Don’t speak like that,” he whispered harshly. “I know the Word. I’ve studied it, I’ve interpreted it and I’ve taught it. What I feel for you is not an abomination and I won’t let anyone make me think it is.”
Jaejoong beamed. He leaned forward and placed a chaste kiss to the holy man’s lips. “Leave this place,” he begged softly. “I don’t want to hide anymore. We can be free from the bishop and everyone else’s disapproval. We’ll be happy.”
Yunho squeezed Jaejoong's hand tightly and shook his head. “I made vows, Jaejoongie. Vows with the Church that I take just as seriously as the promises I’ve made to you. I can’t break them.”
“So I have to love you in secret forever?” Jaejoong asked, voice breaking.
“You’re asking me to choose between you and God, Jaejoong-ah. I can’t do that. I’m giving you as much of myself as I can. Please accept that.”
Jaejoong’s eyes stung and he turned away from Yunho’s beseeching gaze. He looked up at the church’s alter. Silken tapestries lay on the marble table, and behind it, a large stained glass window depicted the Resurrection. All of the people in the glass wore golden halos and bowed reverently to the heavenly being above them.
Jaejoong was going to lose Yunho. He knew it in his heart and his chest ached dully with the pain of the realization. He was no saint nor was he remotely angelic. Yunho was a man a the cloth, a man with priorities much grander than lusting after some piece of trash from his flock. All Jaejoong was doing was leading him to damnation.
“Jaejoong-ah,” Yunho said softly, wrapping an arm around the other man. “I can’t leave the Church but I can’t leave you, either.”
“God will hate you because of me,” Jaejoong sniffed.
“God doesn’t hate those who love, Jaejoongie. Can I tell you a secret?”
The older man rubbed his hands across his damp eyes. “What?”
“You’re the reason my faith is so strong, Jaejoong-ah. People always told me that God is love and I believe that now more than ever. You make me happy, you remind me of all the good in this world, and loving you has been the most wondrous, miraculous thing to ever happen in my life.”
“Will you still think that when Satan’s sweeping you over hell’s burning coals?” Jaejoong asked piteously.
“That won’t happen,” Yunho promised warmly. “But I’ll love you as long as you let me, on Earth and in Heaven.”
Jaejoong smiled weakly and clasped the silver cross that hang from Yunho’s neck. “If I make it into Heaven,” he pouted.
“You’re a good man, Jaejoong. Don’t worry. I know a great deal about the man in charge, and trust me when I say He loves you, too.”
A/N: I've been writing again. Another chapter for my multi-part Psych fic and another YunJae fic that's no way near as happy as this one. It's taken me a while to get my writing mojo back. I felt so guilty about not finishing the Christmas series (I'm so sorry about that but I'd rather post nothing than post quickly written stuff that I think is crap), that it was hard to face my own journal.
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Date: 2012-01-22 05:28 am (UTC)Thanks a lot for sharing!
♥(;
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Date: 2012-01-26 02:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-01-22 05:44 am (UTC)though i like this part you wrote, even if jaejoong's character is just worried, all the love is there! :D
i rather have good quality fics too :) just having it out there will only show how rushed the story is :/
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Date: 2012-01-22 06:33 am (UTC)priest yunnie... why do i like forbidden love...? O____Olol
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Date: 2012-01-26 02:12 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2012-01-26 02:13 am (UTC)Jaejoong the sinner. That sounds like the great beginning to a back story.
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Date: 2012-01-22 12:20 pm (UTC)<3
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Date: 2012-01-26 02:14 am (UTC)Thank you for commenting and I'm happy you liked it!
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Date: 2012-01-24 06:42 am (UTC)I'm glad I stumbled upon this, because I'm pretty sure I came across your YunJae manifesto back when I didn't know what livejournal was, and back when I was just discovering DBSK (so educational, by the way. LOL I was a total believer after I read it. Pun intended.)
Anywayys, why was this so sad and pretty at the same time? ;__; So much love.
-sigh-
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Date: 2012-01-26 02:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-01-26 04:06 am (UTC)Seriously though, it must've taken so much effort to compile it. You must be a really dedicated fan. :D
+Ugh, gosh. Why are Yunjae so. Starcrossed. :C
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